Almost 17 Weeks

I'll be 17 weeks pregnant in a couple of days. So far, so good. Of course, pregnancy has its quirks, but overall this hasn't been bad at all. Knock on wood. I've had a lot of years to think about what it would be like to be pregnant, and I always thought it would be...not so pleasant. As in I'd be sick all the time or I would worry all the time or there'd be something wrong with the baby. Stuff like that. I know there is still plenty of time for something to go wrong and bad things to happen, but I'm thankful so far that all has been well. It has far exceeded my expectations.

I can't say I was one of those people who had to experience being pregnant or their life would not be complete. In fact, I was totally ok with the idea of never being pregnant. I've always wanted to be a mother, though, so I'd figure we'd adopt...which we may still do one day. But since I've been blessed with this opportunity, I'm very thankful that I'm getting to experience it. Now I can't believe I was fine with missing out on this. I think the timing is quite interesting. It certainly changed, or delayed, our plans. Since I've been pregnant, the main Bible verse I think of is Proverbs 19:21: "Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails." Even though life is kind of crazy at the moment (mostly because I don't have a job...still), I know it will all work out in the end. I'm hoping someone wants to hire me soon. I was hoping to land something before I was showing, but that's not going to happen now. My belly popped last week. So while this whole baby thing is the most significant thing I've done with my life, I'm feeling discouragement like I've never felt before. Unfortunately, I think being pregnant will work against me now, even though it shouldn't. If I can't get a regular job, hopefully I can string together enough temp work until I have the baby. I would've never thought it would take me more than three months to find a job. This is one time when I wish God would let me know the plan. I would probably feel much better then.

HOWEVER, I'm thankful I have a husband with a full time job and that I"m working at least half of the month of December at a temp job, even though it means getting up at 5:00 in the morning. I"m thankful that this pregnancy has been so easy so far and has not kept me from doing anything or prevented me from working. This baby knows what's up. He/she totally helped me out with not showing for as long as he/she could so there's no hard feelings that now he/she needs more space. (I'll be so happy after December 28 when I can just type he OR she.) I like my belly. I admire it every time I look in a mirror. It's not that big yet, but it's a baby bump for sure. It literally happened overnight. I woke up one day and my pants (that were already 2 sizes bigger than what I was wearing) didn't fit. Crazy. Maternity pants are awesome, though.