I already have neck pain so I might as well do it, right? Plus it needs to be documented.
Since Collin passed away (16 weeks ago now), I've only gotten good news about baby Gibson. Weekly ultrasounds for the past 7 weeks have told me he's doing great and is perfectly healthy.
Thankfully, he still is, but I've been put on very strict bed rest for at least the next three weeks.
It all started during my routine weekly ultrasound at 29 weeks on December 4. Gibson checked out perfect again, but Collin was no longer where he typically had been. He is still in my womb, intact, and is approximately 2.5 inches long. He was probably about 6 inches long when he passed. The ultrasound tech thought he might have moved down low, so she did an ultrasound the other way to confirm. Sure enough, he had moved to right at the opening of my cervix ahead of Gibson. Thankfully, my doctor said Gibson would probably still push him out of the way at delivery and come out first, so she at least made it sound like it wasn't a big deal. The big deal came about when the tech decided to measure my cervix since it had never been measured before.
It was on the verge of ok and too short at 2.5 cm. I wasn't scheduled to see my doctor that day, but she talked to me and told me to greatly limit my physical activity. I wasn't put on bed rest then, just basically told to sit down as much as possible. And I did. But then Dallas got hit with an ice storm and we were without electricity for almost two days. We couldn't stay in our cold as a refrigerator house, so we endured a night at a hotel with all three of us sleeping on a full size bed. The rest of our time was spent in stores with heat, so I didn't get to rest as much as I needed.
A week later (last Wednesday), I had another appointment and cervix length check. It had gone down to 1.9 cm. That's when things got crazy.
I had a fetal fibronectin test done, which can determine the likelihood of someone going into preterm labor in the next two weeks. I met with my doctor, and she told me I wouldn't be going home that day, but instead would be going to the maternity observation triage area of the hospital for monitoring. So all three of us (Will and Liam were with me) went to that area. I got checked in, put on a hospital gown, and was hooked up to monitors that checked me for contractions as well as Gibson's heart rate. Liam was a very loud fussbot by that point, so Will had no choice but to leave me there by myself.
I was in the triage area for 3-4 hours, and was hooked up to the monitors for about an hour and a half. Gibson's heart rate was great, and I had zero contractions. I was given my first of two steroid shots to build up Gibson's lungs should he come early. The rest of the time was spent waiting for a resident to do whatever paperwork had to be done before I could be sent up to my hospital room. Mid-afternoon, I finally took a wheelchair ride up to the antepartum wing of the hospital. I got settled into the bed laying on my side, and I've been in that position ever since. I can get up to go to the bathroom, I can sit up to eat, and I can take one quick shower a day. The rest of the time, I am laying down. I can't do anything for myself anymore, which is tough because I'm still physically capable of doing things. I can't be alone with Liam unless he is zombied out watching cartoons. I can't prepare food. I can't clean. I just can't do its unless it can be done lying down. Anyone who says that sounds like a dream come true is an idiot. It's hard mentally and physically to be on bed rest. It's not fun being helpless. I'm pretty sure I won't be able to turn my head to the left by tomorrow. However, it's for a very good cause, and it's only temporary.
Back to the hospital...A gracious friend offered to watch Liam, and Will came back to visit me for awhile and bring me some necessities. We ate dinner, and then Will left me there for my first overnight stay in a hospital by myself. Liam's birth is the only other time I've stayed in one, and Will and Liam were both with me then. This was different. This was lonely. I had only crappy cable TV to keep me company. And nurses. I had to do a 20 minute monitoring stint that evening, and surprisingly the nurse stayed in my room the whole time. I didn't sleep much that night. I was awoken at 4 am to be given the medicine I was put on to keep my cervix calm. I'm still on it and have to take it every 6 hours. Thankfully, by the next evening, the nurses had shifted my medicine times to 12 and 6 (both am and pm). But that night, I was awoken at 4, and they had to take my blood pressure every time before they gave it to me. It's actually a blood pressure medication that somehow works on the cervix as well. It lowers BP, so it lowers my already normal blood pressure. I had to move around some to make my blood pressure high enough to take it at 4 am. Then 10 minutes later, someone came in to draw blood. I couldn't go back to sleep after all that. I was happy to see the sun come up a couple hours later.
That morning, I had another cervix check done via ultrasound with one of the high risk doctors I saw after Collin passed. He measured it at 1.7 cm. I couldn't believe it gotten shorter overnight! I knew then that I would have to stay at least another night. When I got back to my room, I was monitored again. No contractions yet again. Starting in late morning, I got some visitors: Candy and Elisa from church, a therapy dog wearing jingle bells, and my doctor. She told me that the slightly shorter measurement was ok because it's difficult to get precise measurements. My FFN test had come back negative, which she said was great, but she wanted me to stay another night and start figuring out how strict bed rest would work at home. Later that afternoon, Will and Liam came to visit me. Liam was confused by me being in bed, but he was cheerful and snuggled with me briefly. I was sad to see them go, but Liam probably would have wreaked havoc on the place before too long.
Thursday evening was spent watching a movie and getting monitored for 20 minutes again. All was well. Friday morning, my doctor came by early and told me I could go home that day to strict bed rest. Will had been told by his boss that he could work from home as long as he needed, so we thankfully have that base to work with. I don't have any idea how we could do this if that wasn't the case. There's no one to watch Liam everyday or anywhere for him to go everyday.
Will came to pick me up around 1 pm. I was told to call for transport when he was 10-15 minutes away. I did. My wheelchair still didn't come for about an hour! By the time I got downstairs, Will was completely stressed out because Liam lost it in the car from all the waiting. But I was glad to be on my way home.
Will has had to take complete care of both Liam and me since then. It's not easy. Liam is a handful, and was rough Saturday, and I think it was because I can't do much with him. I just lay on the couch and in the bed while Will gets us fed, corrals Liam, works from home, cleans, and works on the house (which is still in a state of renovation). It's a lot to handle. It's too much. I want to get up and help, but I'm not supposed to. We are all stressed out right now as we try to get used to this new situation. We need help with Liam. He doesn't let Will get much done while he is awake, and naps haven't happened since this all came about. We don't have a routine down yet. We need Liam out of the house so Will can be productive. Thankfully, a couple people have volunteered to have Liam over a couple of hours this week. The past two days, during what should be nap time, I've stayed with Liam on our bed and lay there while he watches cartoons on our tablet. It's the only time Will can get a break from him and get stuff done. Today, we lasted over two hours together. I know all the screen time isn't great for him, but I'm pretty sure he will be ok, and it's desperate times! I'm hoping he starts falling asleep doing this.
So that's where we are right now. I have another appointment Thursday, and I will be taking a bag in case I have to stay there again. I am 31 weeks pregnant today, so it is still way too soon for Gibson to be born. Even though he is a big boy (already approximately 4 pounds!), he's not ready. He's honestly not doing anything to cause all of this. My doctor thinks Collin could be releasing some prostaglandins that are causing my cervix to shorten prematurely. I don't know if that's the only reason why it's happening, but there's not much that can be done. Collin can't be moved. So we hope that bed rest will prolong the shortening process. I am on this strict bed rest until I am 34 weeks pregnant. Then the situation will be reassessed, and I may get some restrictions lifted. I'm still believing we can make it until full-term. It's only 6 weeks away.
Stared at this board a lot
My view
Monitoring machine
Therapy dog visit
All my pillows...still not comfortable
Watching cartoons
Showing me the Christmas craft he did at church
Looking a little rough, huh?





































